The Scale Couldn't Measure My Weight!

A vital lesson that I have learned while on this new health journey is, "There are no shortcuts on this path!" Every obstacle is won little by little. I hope that those who are reading this can take a quick moment, think back to last year, and see a huge difference in the person you are now versus then. If not, please believe that there are things working favorably on your behalf behind the scenes. You will see it soon- TRUST & BELIEVE, Fam!

It can not be measured in weight-loss or muscle gains...more than likely, your focus is on the wrong measures of change.

So, I was driving up to my favorite spot to do my outdoor run/walk...

WAYMENT!!!!! PAUSE RIGHT HERE!!!! {{{insert HAPPY DANCE for meeeeee right here}}}

Because, Baaaaby!!!! It used to be walk/run---heavy on the walk part-in fact, it used to be a bra-less trip to Waffle House...frfr

ANYWAYS...

As I pulled up to the gravel walking trail on this hot Saturday morning, instantly, I was overwhelmed with gratitude. I wept. I tried to get out of my car, but I wept some more. My mind went back to last few years. I was depressed, anxious, overwhelmed, fighting the desire to just give up. Everyday, I would wake up and ask myself if today was the day that I would quit! Everyday, I would peel myself out of bed, muster up enough energy to teach, and then get back into the bed, blacking out in front of the T.V.- one hand on the remote, the other inside of a family-sized bag of Ruffles Sour Cream & Onion chips with a Coke Zero. My only joy was eating or shopping, but mostly eating. On Saturdays, I would order enough food for two men from my local Waffle House. If I felt inspired, I'd get up to pick it up, but most of the time, I spent exorbitant amounts of money on food delivery services. Laying in my bed, I would on eat it, reheat it, and eat the rest. While binge watching reruns of my favorite shows. Spiritually, and in the natural a regular scale could not measure my weight. I needed a special scale for that...

My problem could not be measured on a scale. My problem was internal. I had a God-sized hole in my heart that I was trying to fill in my own strength. I was just plain ole' sad. My heart was broken. I had no more fight in me. Luckily, I was in therapy...like, a lot...like, at one point I had 3 therapist and a psychiatrist that I was seeing regular. Yall, my psychiatric evaluation was SIXTEEN pages long! I was put on multiple medications for Depression and ADHD. I could see it then, but little, by little, through counselling, a supportive community, and eventually a spiritual awakening that lasted 90+ days, I was being made new. Even when I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel, it was there. I learned patience with myself. My internal weight was decreasing and my abundance was increasing. Knowingly & unknowingly I was on my journey...

Following my beautifully emotional encounter with gratitude, I finally got out of the car, and began with a jog to the cadence of "Barbie World" by Miss Barbier herself #NickiMinaj. This was the first day that I blacked out with vision and when I came back to reality, I was still running. WHAT???? YES!!! AND...God gave me vision of my future. In breadth and outta breath I began chanting:

"Abundance of love is already here and more is coming to me!

Abundance of peace is flowing through me!

Abundance of gratitude is resting inside of me!

Abundance of clarity is overshadowing me!

Abundance, Abundance, Abundance!"

This is why I don't care about the scale. When people ask me how much weight I've lost, I don't know what to say. I guestimate, because I don't weigh myself. I have donated everything that I have every worn, and even my undergarments are ready to fall of me...(TMI- I know). You see, the scale could not measure the weight that I was carrying. A friend in my past told me, "Sharon, when you shed that internal weight you are carrying, the external weight will fall off!" The scale can not measure my progress. The weight that I am shedding is self-hatred, people pleasing, comparison, trauma, rejection, and lack. The abundance that I have added is authenticity, truth, active love, consistency, stewardship, peace, and gratitude.

I celebrate every person on your healing journey. No matter the vehicle that you have used to get here. For me, it was the process of VSG surgery. Your path to healing is yours, so own it! Remember Comparison is the enemy to your growth!

If you have not began your journey to healing, today can be your first day. I would suggest your first step is looking for a therapist- someone to talk to so you can begin unpacking the weight you are carrying on the inside. True and lasting wellbeing happens from the inside/ out.

As I finished my workout and began my cool-down phase, God said this:

God also told me, "Daughter, you are sacred, now occupy and reign in your sacred space!"

We are sacred beings, everything begins on the inside and transfers outside. It is all spiritual! Scales can not measure what is inside of you! The weight of who you are created to be is too heavy for a man-made instrument of measurement.

If you live anywhere in Alabama, I have some great suggestions for stellar therapists!

Now, give yourself a hug and love you!

You are loved!

Isaiah 55:8-9

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

I Corinthians 2:9

That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, 'No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.'

Resources:

https://therapywithrcc.com/

https://healingcollectivellc.com/

https://www.alignable.com/huntsville-al/dk-counseling-llc